Only 5 more days to B-day, and this year I am beginning to feel much better about the whole thing. Usually around this time I get super critical of myself and throw myself into a week long depression before the big day. But I think I might actually get through this week ok... - yes one of my goals for this year is to be kind to myself and to be more positive. I also think having that huge emotional break-down before New Year's really helped too... I really need to find the strength to express myself otherwise I just know I'll endup breaking down again. Another goal to add to the list. These are not resolutions per se - I see resolutions being quit smoking lose weight that sorta thing... these are more goals towards me living a happier and healthier life. Discovering what makes me truely happy - Murphy makes me happy - so I must appreaciate everyday I have with him because I know he is one of my guiding lights,my family makes me happy - I have to think of a way to connect with my brother again(even if that means being nice to the witch, I mean sister-in-law), my friends make me happy - I must spend more time with them and reconnect with the ones that have faded from sight, unfortunately it also means that I have to clear away the ones that I have to work to hard at(the whole two way street sorta thing), belly dancing makes me happy - that means more, more, more - hope you are upto it L., dancing makes me happy - even if I have to start going on my own, reading makes me happy - I have to allow more time to non-educational reading - well maybe not non-educational but not to do with U of T classes. Wow... that's quite the list off the top of my head.... It's going to take alot of work... but being the quintissential Capricorn I will slowly climb my way to the top.
I have also decided it was time to begin real thearapy for my hip again. Of course this was brought about by throwing my back out last week, this time it happened to be the right side which is quite unusual for me. So I am now going for theraputic massage to help restore my body's balance and I am sure that it will help with restoring my emotional balance as well, since it is all connected. Yoga and meditation are also going to be apart of this, I know that my brain goes off in a million different directions at any one time, so these will help me bring it all back and focus my energy and it doesn't take long. I did about half an hour of meditating, stretching and 3 rounds of Sun Rise Salutatation this afternoon and I feel so much better. My neck was killing me, my mind was all over the place and I was feeling tired, but afterwards I feel better, stronger and more able to concentrate. Hence the really long post.
Anyway here is to making 2006 my year for postive change and moving forward. I hope that I can include you all in this process.
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