Been Away for Awhile...

Well I haven't really been posting recently... I guess beacause all that has been going on has been fairly negative and I didn't want to burden or sound like I wanted pity for it. Since things are not really getting all that much better, I decided I needed to get it out and in the open.

For most of you, you already know that the diagnosis of fibromyalgia, ontop of the already exsiting chronic pain, is pretty much official. So if I have been noncommunicative etc. I'm sorry... but I have been living on barely 4 hours of sleep a night for the last year and a half and so achy all the time that I have started to withdraw and just want to stay home. I just don't have the energy. I'm still here and I miss you all, but when you barely have enough energy to get through a work day let alone anything else... even Murphy has suffered, as we don't get out to the park or for walks anymore. I keep telling myself... it's nice out and when I get home Murphy and I are going to go for a walk but by the time I actually get home.... doesn't happen.

Anyway.... the next bit of bad news that I got last night is pretty hard for me. My mom just told me that my grandma is dying of lung cancer. I have known for about a month or two that she had been unwell... but they could not figure out why. So she went for test after test, because she was having severe back pain, they finally did a chest x-ray and found cancer throughout her lungs. So my mom is taking her in tomorrow to see if there is anything they can do or if it is too far advanced for treatment... of course if treatment was an option we would have to get my grandma to do it... she is definitely my grandma... doesn't want to be in hospital... and she is STUBBORN... lol.... anyway... there ya go... an update.